i give up wechat and Facebook

hi there .

i want to say/write that i give up wechat / facebook .

the fact i use it for as an alternative way to know girl , or find a date.

but it turn out many people appove my friend request but they never reply me ,

so sorry to say normally those very obese people and those look not good reply me,

and they approve fast ,

after my study days  from secondary school to college ,  i feel like there is no more chance for me to know girls ,

i am 26 this year ,  i been using these social site since i am 18 or 19 .

there is hard for me to see/bump into girls that are my age , after finish schooling .

i try so hard in fb or wechat , been shortly quit these few times, today i announce that i have Give Up of
it.

i personally give up , i am also feel so fed up , i am tired of these ,

if i could rate myself probably is 7 / 10 ,

before  wechat  exist,  i been though of drive around or go around my taman area to say hi to girls ,

that is near in my area ,

but now got wechat , where i can search for a list of people live near me , from 100m to 4km ,

but all barely serious about me ,

with case of criminal around ,  i think is one of reason that they refuse to meet .

when i start working , few  months and have salary.

i drive around 10-20 km when i offday , just try to scout of girls , though of can know them ,

but i didnt manage , i think i tried too hard ,

i think i missed my chance in college and now i am getting older year by year , i think my demand already drop alot ,

right now my eyes still eying for secondary school girls , but the fact that i am 26 years now ,

I am not suitable for teenage girl an ymore , my eye cant recognise the girl my age , is it 20 something or 3x years old, sometime look young but old age , sometime look old but young age ,

i dont know what girl suits me , sometime some pizzahut teenage delivery person called me uncle ,
some kids call me uncle , sometime the parent say call me older brother ,

i also dont know myself .

now i will go all natural , if i go out to do or buy my things , if it happens it happens , if there is not happen to see any girl that suits me , just be  it , i am tired of doing too desperate ,

when i working time in factory i already know is hard to see girls ,i am youngest and i see all much older people only ,

i leave it to god , right now i know is 99% to me is not possible to know girl online ,

i leave it to god ,i feel that i got lesser notice and didnt got chance to bump to beautiful girls anymore that is around my age,

我很累了 ， 我放弃了， i still got my pets to care , i still gt my business to make it stable that is to earn 1k or more so that i can earn a steady living , then only i can afford dating and all .

I FEEL THAT NOBODY CARE MY FEELING , NO BODY CARE TO KNOW ME , NOBODY CARE TO SHARE A LIFE TIME TO ME , I FEEL THAT I AM WORTHLESS , i feel that nobody/no girl  value me , just now i went to mini market a girl (probably younger than me , looks (5/10 ) cashier , i though she is tauke daughter , but she call me hello , u see this counter is closed , u go to other counter , on that side , i never though there is 2 counter , actually there is far opposite site , this is first time i go there.


if i could earn 1k a month , i can take more things and eventually sell more and more and earn more and more things.

i have this thinking that , i will be single forever , is a long time i dont get the love sign/chemistry anymore ,
u will know if a person suddenly smile and shy towards you , and eventually notice you , is this sign i am talking about ,

i m 26 years old , i also curious about girl body , i am still a virgin , my friend got 2 girlfriend already , 1st aleady hv sex and when he is 21+ year old he got a 16 year old girlfriend , pretty , shothair and cute ,
this is a type i looking for , i feel jjealous , i envy him , until 1-2 weeks ago he called my house , i dont even dare to pick up the call , i feel so embarrased with myself , when i was 21+ i also hope to get a schoolgirl girlfriend , that time iw ork shift my salary was 1.7k not yet deduct epf and not yet count OT，

even that time i got money , i though want spend to girl also none i just keep it myself , never spend to run a business ,

even got money doesnt mean  i got gf , i also driving car ,                  haaaaaah    ,
i today i really want to give up ev erything ,

i was avoid everyone , i dont like school party , or sports day , i dont like college presentation and dont like college selling things class , i have done / avoid all these , but right now i finally avoid my best friend since 13 year old .

i am very sad of myself , my friend he is son of businessman , open a shop ,now got 2 shop and his son get a small factory , his son drive gen2 and now civic 1.8 , get gfs , no need to work for people and no need get scolded ,no need get criitic , no need get scolded , he failed his spm , that days before spm he went learn driving car , and failed his spm ,

while me , i want to cry time taking spm , and in college i study very hard to success ,

but in the end i go factory suffer , i feel very stress , while he gets everything ,

I feel very sad , depress, i remember the days he ask me out with him but he bring his gf sit beside him , i at back my sadness can be seen and my friend know look at center mirror , i dont know how sad it is .i am so frustrated with my life , my father keep thinking that i go earn my own money then can dating , eveything i do myself , just because he doesnt have anything ,

actually i feel fed up with my family , my self , i am ashame of myself , more and more days i no more confident to myself , i dont dare to feel proud or confident , because i have no money and i have no gf , i have no thing in my life , i been work 4 factory i am the youngest , no girl i like , prettier is married , left big and fat woman , i so sad that my face also sad and no confident , sometime i feel myself face is like those anti social people ,

my parents is no suppotive of me , i have older sister and mother mental problem now , my father always against me , i hate myself ,

i am so sad that i dont want think about girl , my heart feel like it is dropping everytime i think about it  ,,

when college i no confident because i no money , i no car , but now haiz i found is not money problem too , with my age now money is really a probblem to me ,

i have just uninstalled wechat , and facebook i woont add people anymore , no matter how hard i try , there wont be people start conversation with me and wont chat with me , i have change photo and acount feww time but it end up the same

I am just another unknown human in this world.

my car with me 7 years aleady , i never fetch a girl other than my mom and sister ,

my dream to fetch a school girl , or girl around my age happily and go to cinema /walk the malls , it just didnt happen , my dream is to fetch girl in car beside me , talking and joking happily inside car ,

it wont happen to me , since i have no partner i dont bother to go out much ,